One day I was talking to my Grandmother about me, like we did on many ocassions. She was the only one I could talk to about me who would make me feel good about who I was. Grandma liked me, I knew it....I was a little wild and untamed and just like her.
We spoke about how I'd always felt I didn't quite fit in with the rest of the family, how I felt outside...different somehow, always fighting and wrestling something wild within my being that just wouldn't be contained. Others seemed to target me, misunderstand me, were fearful of me and saw me as a threat to their peaceful lives.
She listened, agreed and said quite matter of factly, " well my darling, you are the black wolf of the family...."
For a moment or two I assumed she had meant black sheep, but I was no sheep and she knew it.....and anyway, I didn't want to be a sheep, black, white or otherwise.... so black wolf it was! I claimed it, made it my own, and set about learning of my black wolf within.
Being such a visual thinker and growing up primarily with my Grandmother's influence I was well aware of the spiritual realm. The language of archetypes and symbolism were native to my way of understanding messages and guidance. The black wolf ressonated within me naturally, what she represents I saw as positives within myself. I had already studied the work of Clarissa Pinkola Estes so this confirmation of my wild woman heritage was a blessing and a confirmation for me.
The she wolf has legendary achetypal status, and is a powerful symbol of good and dark forces. Kept in balance she is a great asset to me! I am so glad I was named Black Wolf...thank you Grandma.
Today I created Black Wolf Publications - I was born to write, to create, to communicate...I have a vision and one day soon I hope, the Black Wolf will give birth to my dream.
